The Narcissist That’s what the therapist called my soon to be ex-husband Karl. Narcissistic Personality Disorder bordering on Sociopath. I would watch him try to mimic others emotions and reenact them. I didn’t understand at the time. Now I do.    Since he was removed from the United States on March 9th, 2018 for all of his criminal activity and just poor behavior in general, I have been inundated with all sorts of crazy things. Continue Reading

When the Loneliness gets to you   I am very much having all these thoughts and feelings right now. I really wish I had paid better attention to and heeded my own warning about allowing people into my life. I already kept people at arms length and hadn’t allowed anyone in my life intimately in five years. I thought my husband was sincere when we met. To find out I was nothing more than anyoneContinue Reading

There is no sweeter innocence than our gentle sin       Gentle sin is without malice or intent. You cannot want to do harm to someone before entering a room, that is intent. You cannot break down our apartment door with an audio recorder in your pocket, already recording and while breaking things throughout our apartment tell me I am “destroying our apartment” all so you can let people listen to that recording later.Continue Reading

All In I don’t understand. I have said your name over and over again. I can’t look at any of your photos. When I see you – them. It hurts me so much I feel like I can’t breathe. I feel horrified that you would do and say all those things about me that weren’t true. When I see a picture of just you, you look familiar, but I don’t have that surge of feelingsContinue Reading

Beautiful Song I hope you’re somewhere prayin’, prayin’I hope your soul is changin’, changin’I hope you find your peaceFalling on your knees, prayin’ You brought the flames and you put me through hellI had to learn how to fight for myselfAnd we both know all the truth I could tellI’ll just say this is “I wish you farewell” Natachia Barlow Ramsey; Postpartum Psychosis Survivor and Loser ~Be Loud, Be Purposeful, Be Strong, Be Courageous, BeContinue Reading